Correspondence With A Friend – Dare To Hope!?!?!?!


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Letting Go

FROM ANTOINE

Hi Shannan, It is a pleasure reading your thoughts and seeing you grow. You are such a beautiful person indeed. I have observed you over the last 2 years at Christ Church and I have seen a change in you. Just wanted to leave you some encouragement because day in and day out, you encourage others.

“The glory of this present house will be greater than the glory of the former house,” says the LORD Almighty. “And in this place I will grant peace…”
(Haggai 2:9, NIV).

God wants to amaze you with His goodness! We are living in a day where God is increasing His favor. Maybe you have seen God’s goodness to a certain degree. In reality, you haven’t seen anything yet! God has favor in your future that will supersede anything that you’ve seen in the past.

The Scripture talks about how the glory of the latter-day will be greater than the glory of the former day. That means what God did for your parents or grandparents, He’s going to surpass in your generation. The blessing and favor of past generations was good, but we serve a God of increase! He has greater things in store for your future!

Today, I encourage you to get your hopes up. I encourage you to enlarge your vision. Be expecting God to bring opportunities across your path. Be expecting to meet the right people and get the right breaks. Prepare your heart and mind to receive the increase and blessing God has in store for you!

One more thing, I have been hard-headed as I have neglected to share with you things the Lord have laid on my heart concerning you. Never be disobedient with God, never turns out well lol. I’m just not the type of person that is comfortable approaching someone (especially if I don’t really know them) and saying “the Lord told me to share yadda yadda yadda with you”.

In closing, please permit me to leave this prayer with you.

Father in heaven, thank You for being the God of increase. I trust that You have great things in store for Shannan’s future. Not only Shannan, but all of your children. We surrender every area of our mind, will and emotions as we wait on You. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Have a blessed Day Shannan and I hope this isn’t as weird for you as it was for me writing it. Lol


Antoine,

To say thank you doesn’t seem enough.  Your “neglected to share” is actually God’s perfect timing.  He knew you would wait until I needed to hear these words the most; and be ready to hear the confirmation of a process He’s begun in me.

As I read your words yesterday, my eyes filled with tears and my heart with thanks to God.  This week has been a purging of wrong thoughts about myself and the lies I’ve listened to since childhood.  I asked God to do this in me, and thankfully He is gracious to make it a step by step process.

It’s easy to believe good things for everyone else.  I believe in my spirit God will give me His very best, but my heart has been afraid to hope.  My hands have literally been in fists since Warren’s death.  I noticed I would wake-up in the morning with clenched fist, and I would look down throughout the day and see my hands balled up tightly.  Despite my best efforts to mentally open my hands, they would always tense back into a firm grip.  I know there has been a part of me doing the same inside.  I know better.  It’s a false sense of staying in control.  What I haven’t known, is how to let go.

Over the last few weeks, I have asked God to reveal what this “fist” is.  What area of me is so locked up?  A couple of Sunday’s past, I noticed I would raise one hand in free worship while the other remained fastened against my stomach.  God said, “If you release it I will take it.”  I didn’t know how to “release it” because I didn’t know what it was.  I realized, He simply wanted me to raise my other hand in open freedom like the other.  I was surprised to find it a struggle, but I forced my other hand to worship also.  From this moment on God has been teaching me what “it” is.  I have been afraid to hope.

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Last night a precious person asked me, “Hey, are you doing better than ok today?  It sounds like you have just been ok.”

I was having a good day, but I was struggling with believing God was really going to bless me.  I mean, something wrong had to come.  If that makes sense?  And, if this was God stepping me forward, surely there would be a huge battle – nothing good is easy.  WHAT?  I have been praying for God to protect my mind from the lies of the enemy.  Your letter yesterday, along with the question from my friend, showed me just how much I have bought into the liars deception.

All this to say, THANK YOU!  Thank you for being obedient.  Thank you for taking time to care for someone you don’t fully know.

“Today, I encourage you to get your hopes up.” Thank you for loving with the love of Christ.

I pray God’s richest blessings on you and your family.

Sincerely,
Shannan

We all have wounds from this world.  Maybe others will release their “fist” through reading this portion of my journey?

5 Comments

  1. Zane King said,

    08/14/2010 at 11:50

    Very nicely done, sister!
    Warmly, Zane

  2. Elaine Witts said,

    08/15/2010 at 11:50

    Dear Shannon: Thank you for sharing your heart. You will never remember me — I attended Bayfair Baptist Church, Pickering ON when Warren & his family were there. My husband, Ray, and I are baptized believers and have a strong personal relationship with HIM. Periodically I read your blog as I so often I think of you and wonder how you are managing — my sister was left a widow with 4 kids when she was just 31 — so I could share many of your ponderings. But today your blog hit home with me — I have had so many things in my life that prevent me from believing that something good his in store for me — so I go from day to day just being OK. I will take your words with renewed encouragement today. May God bless you in your journey. Hugs. Elaine

    • 08/17/2010 at 11:50

      Elaine, It’s good to hear from you. Thank you for sharing. I cannot imagine what your sister has gone through. I’ve only had me to deal with, I cannot fathom what it must be like to have to be strong for four little ones, or to look into their confused faces over their own pain. This I know, God’s arms are great big and can hug us all as often as we need Him to. May you feel His hug today and may God grant us both courage to hope in Him; Today. Many Hugs In Return, Shannan

  3. 08/19/2010 at 11:50

    Sweet Release.


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