Beyond A Disconnected Head and Heart

The Lamb Lives


“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His holy people.”  – Eph. 1:18

In difficult times, when we’re wrestling for truth, people will often say to us “Just keep your eyes on God.”  This is perfect advice, but even when we’re peering into God’s face it is sometimes hard to feel hopeful.

“Then I began to weep bitterly because no one was found worthy to open the scroll and read it.”  – Rev. 5:4

John stood before God’s very throne, focused fully on Him, and he bitterly wept in hopelessness.  John had stood face-to-face with Jesus.  He walked with Him, and knew all the things He had done.  He even witnessed His resurrection from the dead, but in that moment before God’s throne, there was a disconnect between John’s heart and his mind.  John felt the hopelessness of mankind.  In that a moment, God had not revealed the final answer and John felt the pressing weight of despair.

We all have these moments.  Times when our mind is disconnected from the truth we know in our heart.  Thankfully, God is full of grace and understands that we are limited in our humanness, that is, until He opens our eyes and reveals His redemption plan, in our story today and how it weaves into the final finale.

I agree that we need to keep our gaze fixed firmly on God.  He alone holds all the answers and the healing we long for, but I also understand that until He chooses to reveal those things, we will wrestle in the disconnect between the head and heart.  We need to be fully honest with God during these struggles.  If our hearts are weeping, we can weep before Him, but we must keep wrestling!

“Jacob said, “I’m not letting you go ’til you bless me.”  The man said, “What is your name?”  He answered, “Jacob…”  (Jacob finally got honest with God about who he was)  “And then, right then and there, he blessed him…  Jacob said, “I saw God face-to-face and lived to tell the story!”  – Gen. 32:26-30

Jacob stood face-to-face with God and got gut-wrentchingly honest with Him.  He had his eyes directly on God, yet felt the full weight of his struggle.  Jacob wrestled with God all through the night season, “and then, right then and there,” truth was revealed and the blessing came – on the other side of the struggle.

~ Beyond bitter tears ~

“But one of the twenty-four elders said to me, “Stop weeping!  Look, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the heir to David’s throne has won the victory.  He is worthy to open the scroll and its seven seals.”  – Rev. 5:5

John stood desperately weeping before God.  The weight of hopelessness pressed heavy on his heart and despair flooded the core of his being, but all was not hopeless.  The victory had already been won and He, the Victor, stood before John.  God opened John’s eyes so he could see.  “Look, the Lion of the tribe of Judah… has won the victory.  He is worthy…!”

We continue to wrestle because we believe!

As we wrestle with God today, I ask that He will open the eyes of our hearts to see His truth and burst forth the blessings He holds for us.  I am asking that Almighty God silence the spirits of fear and despair, and no longer allow them to be our companions.  May He cause our minds to connect with the truth we know in our hearts.  May we see the truth that is for today and and know that the victories of tomorrow are already won.

We continue to wrestle because we believe, on the other side of the struggle, hope is fulfilled, the blessing is granted, and the Lamb is alive.


The Lamb Lives