Just Taken? Death Was Supposed To Be Foreign To Us.

Maurice Carter - May God allow me to leave behind such a legacy of love...

There have been a number of conspiracy theories surrounding the sudden death of my dear friend Maurice.  I’ve heard people talking about what might have actually happened the night he disappeared.  I’m not going to share any of those thought processes with you now for the sake of his family, and too, I do not want to plant those questionable seeds in your mind.  The human mind has a great ability to build and accept “truths” out of a mound of lies.

Here are my questions.  What if God just took him?  Like Enoch, or the prophet Elijah?  What if God looked down and decided that Maurice did a great job and deserved heaven for his reward?  What if this is the only explanation?  Does that make God bad?

Jesus stood at the tomb of Lazarus and wept.  He wasn’t weeping because He was hopeless.  Jesus knew exactly what He was about to do, but I believe He wept because death was never intended to be a part of our reality.  The physical death we all will face is a result of this fallen world.  As Jesus stood peering into Lazarus’ grave, He was faced with the reality of what He was about to endure to remedy the hold death had on mankind.  In that moment Jesus wept for His friend Lazarus, but I believe He was experiencing the sorrow, and weight, of death itself.  But then He spoke, “Lazarus Come Forth!”

Jesus, in His humanness, stood at a grave site feeling it’s finality.  That day Jesus, as I AM, gave a preview of what was about to unfold three days after we bury Him.  Just as Lazarus came out alive from his tomb, Jesus was about to walk out of His own earthly grave.  The finality of the death we taste is still subject to be obedient to God’s command.  It too must submit to His will.

Lazarus, come forth!”  And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with grave-clothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth.  Jesus said to them, “Loose him, and let him go.” – John 11:43b-44

God has all authority, even over the death of our physical bodies.  So, what if God took him from us?

When my husband was killed many people came to me asking, “Why?”  Why did Warren have to be where he was?  Why did we make the stops along the way in our travels that led us to that place at that exact moment?  Why did God allow Tim Baker to leave the bar when he did?  There were countless questions I was asked to answer that night, and the weeks and months after Warren’s death.  The answer is simple, I don’t know.  I cannot answer for what God allows and what He does not. Truthfully, I still think He doesn’t make sense.  What I think and what He knows rarely ever line up.  I do know that He is God and I am not.  Warren and Maurice belong to Him, and death has no power that God has not given it.  However those precious to me leave this earth, however God chooses to take me from this earth, is all up to His sovereign hand.

We wrestle with the reason and search for more detail because death was supposed to be foreign to us.  We seek and create answers to cope with the mystery of the unknown.  Before Adam and Eve bit into the forbidden fruit we had no knowledge of what we call death.  Sorrow was not part of our design.  We invited this in when we decided to have our eyes “opened” to be like God “knowing good and evil.” (Gen. 3:4-5)It was at this moment in time that redemption’s plan was set into motion.

Why Warren?  Why Maurice?  Why death?  WHY WOULD GOD?

The righteous perishes, And no man takes it to heart; Merciful men are taken away, While no one considers that the righteous is taken away from evil.” – Isaiah 57:1

It may just be God’s grace extended to His own.

And Enoch walked with God; and he was not, for God took him.” – Genesis 5:24

Maybe God did just take them?  Whichever theory we decide to believe surrounding the death of our friends and loved ones, we can rest in the fact that God is good and His mercies endure forever.  If we find ourselves questioning God or even getting angry at Him, we must remember that it was our own choosing to have our eyes opened, but God’s grace has made a way through Jesus that we can again walk with Him in peace.

Death may feel final for those of us left behind, but true life, restored life, is waiting beyond its veil.

For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality.  So when this corruptible has put on incorruption, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.”


O Death, where is your sting?
O Hades, where is your victory?” – 1 Corinthians 15:53-55

If there’s no other answer to the multiple questions in our mind but that God is God and He chooses rightly, are we willing to trust and rest in Him?

~Shannan

2011, Keeping It Real!

I LOVE AND MISS YOU MY TRUE FRIEND!

Saying goodbye to this friend is a searing knife through the heart, but it’s also the sweetest joy because of the absolute truth that this is only a temporary parting. JESUS is enough and has made a way. Until we all have the honor Maurice has been granted, we must carry the torch forward.

Priceless Purpose!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, GOD!!!!  For opening up this silent child – ME.

Today a young girl needed a place to be real with her hurt, bad words and all.  Had I not walked through the painful journey of my childhood and then the sudden death of my husband, I may not have had the honor of her trust.  She has a lot of good reason to be angry and cry, but she continues to search for better.

Dear God, show her YOU.  Show this young girl YOUR true pure love and compassion, and guide me as I continue to share my story.   Let our stories be those from Tragedy to Triumph.  AMEN!

Start talking.  Bring it all into the light where it loses its power!

“And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony!” – Revelation 12:11a

Now this is a purpose that is priceless.

Are you allowing your experiences to isolate you?  Read the scripture above again.  You can overcome by using your voice.  We will have trials but they do not have to own us.

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace.  In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33

Today I am imagining what it will be like when I can write from the next chapter of my life.  God is making all things new.  I am choosing to believe for both myself and this young girl.  I not only believe that God can fulfill the deepest desires of our heart, but I believe that He will!

~Shannan

2011, Keeping It Real!

In the end, all wrongs will be made right.  Hang In There!

Priceless Purpose!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, GOD!!!!  For opening up this silent child – ME.  A young girl needed a place to be real with her hurt, bad words and all.  Had I not walked the painful journey through childhood and the sudden death of my husband, I may not have had the honor of her trust.  She has a lot of good reason to be angry and cry, but she continues to search for better.  Dear God, show her YOU.  Show her YOUR true pure love and compassion, and guide me as I begin to share my childhood story.   Let our stories be those from tragedy to triumph.  AMEN!  Bringing it into the light where it loses its power!

Now this is a purpose that is priceless.

~Shannan